Someone once asked me if I preferred sunset or sunrise? My
immediate response was sunrise, because it usually meant I was driving home
from a birth. This day, driving up to the Florida School of Traditional
Midwifery for my first day of school, has much the same feel.
Before I leave, I peek in on my children sleeping as
children do, heavily and happily in their beds. I load my car and kiss my
husband good-bye. I leave in the wee morning hours when the stars are sharp and
the air is cool. The drive ahead is long by many people’s standards but I
cherish this moment of quiet reflection. This is the deep breath before the
DIVE. It’s been a journey to make THIS journey and today it becomes a reality.
As I drive I ponder the faces and information about my
classmates that I’ve gleaned from Facebook and emails. Each person is unique in
this journey. I’ve never met a dull midwife and I wonder what I will come to
know of my classmates and future sister midwives.
When the sun begins to rise I am near to my destination. It
is in this moment, as I’m trying to capture that beauty with a bit of roadside
photography that I realize this is the BIRTH of a new day.
My road side Zen moment completed, I drive onto to pick up
and officially meet my first classmate. She is a fellow midwifery zealot and
mom. I will be staying a day or two a week with her and her family for the next
three years. My heart is deepened by the fact that this “stranger” is willing
to welcome me in to her home. We chat on the way to school, sharing stories
about our families, dreams, passions and lives.
We arrive and I scurry up to the library to seize what books
I couldn’t beg, borrow or steal. Before I know class has begun. It is being
taught by the infamous Dr. Scott. Dr. Scott has the reputation of being an
excellent educator. Upon visual inspection she seems comfortable in her own skin.
She look as if she could diagnose any illness in the African bush with a pen
light. As I listen to her instructions I find her sharp wit and well-timed
humor to be in keeping with reputation.
We break for lunch. I sit with Michelle, a licensed message
tech, Margo, a tattoo artist, and Megan a mom-to-be and former substitute
teacher. I mentally note the diversity of the participants and think about how
midwifery has called to each of them. The need for midwifery care is so deep,
so universal, that it calls to all souls and I LOVE that.
The rest of the school day is a blur of paperwork and smiling
at vaguely familiar faces. I work on actively relaxing the tension in my
shoulders. I work on keeping my mind sharp after a 5 a.m. drive. I look at my
hands and think of what they are working to become capable of. Deep breath, release shoulders.
The night is homework, reading dry words, reveling in the
kind words written about me on Facebook, FaceTime with my boys, more birth talk
and sleeping in an unfamiliar, but much appreciate bed.
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