Friday, December 31, 2010

Client Zero turns 1

(me with my first doula baby)

On Wednesday my first doula client turned one year old! Unfortunately, I missed the party because of a family illness but I'm so amazed at how fast a year can fly by!

I was excited all month as I awaited the phone call from my client telling me she was in labor. It was my first client ever and I was worried my inexperience would shine through. I'm sure that it did but they were so nice to me it didn't matter one bit. I spent the entire labor with them at hospital. Our nurse was nice and the midwife is actually the same midwife that caught my friends two children!

It was a great learning experience for me (next time bring food). I'm glad that my first birth was a vaginal birth (my friend is working on her certification and she is convinced that she is cursed, 2 cesarean clients in a row) and that the couple was as nice to me as they were.

Hopefully soon I'll be celebrating the one year birthday of my first midwifery client!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Moving out, moving on

"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful."

— Sigmund Freud

Monday, December 27, 2010

Birth is the teacher

"Women deserve to birth with respect and kindness and honoring. The baby has the right to be born gently."
- Maria Iorillo, CPM



I absolutely love this video. I wish that all women had the opportunity to birth with providers that understand and cherish the sacred right of passage that is their birth experience.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Fall Semester 2010

Wednesday was my last day of my first semester of midwifery school. Time has flown by! It was such an amazingly happy time in my life. I've met some of the nicest and most awesome people. People that I will be spending the next three years with, people who will become my sister midwives! 





The drive was not that fun! It typically took over two hours to get from St.Pete/Tampa to Gainesville. The hardest part was waking up early, often before 6am.Once I even got a ticket! You live and learn!
The classes this semester were: Anatomy and Physiology I with lab, History of Midwifery, Psychology for Midwives, Interpersonal Relationship Skills, Health Care Skills I, and the HIV/AIDS workshop. This semester we also had CPR and Research Methods but I've already taken both of those. Overall, I think I did really well this semester and I hope everyone passed! I will know my grades when they are mailed to me the first week of January. 
Next semester we will be starting our clinical precepting with our midwives! I am so excited I can hardly wait for January!

Friday, November 19, 2010

The Netherlands and Postmodern Midwifery


Well, I had my presentation at school on the Netherlands. I did my part on postmodern midwifery. I really feel like I need to live by example and embrace the ideas of postmodern midwifery even before I'm a midwife. It's truly the way to go.

I showed a video in class that i thought I'd share the link to.

Fate of Earth
Fate of Birth


Some books I'd recommened for postmodern activism include:

Birth as an American Right of Passage- Robbie Davis-Floyd
Born in the U.S.A.- Marsden Wagner
Pushed- Jennifer Block

Sunday, October 31, 2010

MamaBabyHaiti


Vision

MamaBabyHaiti.org

Our vision is to staff and maintain a free standing birth center in Haiti that will serve as a safe and clean place for women to come for free quality health care from midwives and naturopathic doctors. We will provide prenatal, birth, postpartum, and pediatric care, as well as education and other life saving services. Our birth center will have necessary medical supplies, running water, and a generator for power. We will provide care 24/7.

We envision women coming one time per week for group prenatal care and us going to surrounding villages two times per month to provide prenatal care and village healthcare for families.

We envision mothers and families meeting in our classroom space weekly to learn about prenatal health and nutrition, hygiene, childbirth education, breastfeeding education with the goal of exclusive breastfeeding for a minimum of one year, contraception methods, and sustainable living (including herbal health remedies, gardening and raising chickens). We envision having a garden at our birth center that will be used as an example for gardening fruits, vegetables and medicinal herbs.

We envision our birth center being a place where pregnant women and their families can fill jugs with clean drinkable water. We also plan on giving the families that complete our program water filtration systems to promote continual health. We plan on feeding our clients a healthy meal at their prenatal appointments, classes and during their postpartum stay at the birth center.

We envision collaborating with Haitian midwives and midwifery students to reduce the maternal, fetal and neonatal mortality rate in Haiti. We feel we will all benefit from learning from each other and serving the women together in safe and gentle birth.


I just read about this organization through Stand and Deliver. They have volunteer opportunities for Student Midwives lasting 1 to 3 months. I'm really hoping to get the opportunity to volunteer abroad as a student midwife!

Midwifery is such a beautiful profession that transcents all cultulres! I am so happy be a part of it!

Friday, October 29, 2010

Doula Ambitions


My week has been crazy! I spent the last five days in Gainesville for my HIV/AIDS workshop and then class. On Tuesday we had another anatomy exam. Not everyone is doing great and I really don't want anyone not to pass! That's been making me anxious. I don't want any of my sister midwives to leave school!

On Thursday I went to Baby Love and met up with AnthroDoula. It was so nice to meet an anthropologist/doula, especially since I myself was in graduate school for the same thing less than two years ago! We had such a great time! She told me that she met a couple local doulas and they mentioned a huge divide between the home birth vs hospital birth sect. Hopefully, we can bridge that divide. We shall see.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Two Hundred Dollars Richer!


So I woke up early today and checked my work email and this was in my inbox:

"Dear Jessica,

Congratulations! The All Children’s Hospital Scholarship Committee has met and reviewed the 2010 applications for the All Children’s Hospital Scholarship Awards. You have been awarded a scholarship for $200.00. Your scholarship payment will be in the paycheck you receive October 15, 2010 and will be listed on your pay stub as “Scholarship.”

The All Children’s Hospital Scholarship Committee thanks you for your interest in the All Children’s Hospital Scholarship program and encourages you to apply in the future if you remain eligible for application.

Please remember, All Children’s Hospital employees who receive scholarship awards may also be eligible to apply for tuition assistance.


Good luck as you continue your health care studies!


Sincerely,

Dan "

Today is a good day!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Ten Centimers Too Late


So I'm sitting at work and I've been seeing people come in all day to see my work friend and her baby who are upstairs. I hadn't seen my friend come down yet so I wasn't sure I was going to see her before she returned from her maternity leave. Well, today she graced me with her presence and let me just tell you, this woman looks fab for just having had her baby on Friday. I give her my warm congrats and she tells me her birth story:

Friday: Contractions 10 minutes apart for five hours at home. Calls the CNM and is informed to stay home until they are 5 minutes apart. Well, that time never seems to come so my friend and her husband decide it's time to come in to the hospital.

While at the hospital, the receptionist makes her wait in a room full of people while she gets signed in. While in triage, the nurse checks her to make sure she's in "active labor" and this isn't just "false labor." Well guess what? Momma's 8 cm and her water just broke! Cue the "Stork Team." My friend tells me she's never seen more people in a delivery room in her life!

The entire time she was pregnant she always told me she planned on getting an epidural, she had one the first time and she swears by them. Well, momma was ten centimeters too late this time and pushed her baby out unmedicated into the waiting arms of whoever the hospital OB was because her midwife hadn't even been called!

My friend was absolutely glowing! It's so amazing how drastically plans can change. Sometimes for the worst but, more importantly, sometimes for the better. I love to hear birth stories when the moms were too far gone to get an epidural and had unplanned unmedicated births. They come out with a new perspective! It's beautiful.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Saint Pete on a bike

Sarah came over today when I got off work and we went on a two hour bike ride to get our exercise on and to earn some extra puntos because we like to eat. I gave her two options, ride down to the pier/Vinoy or take the Pinellas County Trail to Mike's moms house and have him pick us up. Mike swears we wouldn't have made it to his moms house so we went to the pier.

After almost getting hit by a car on more than one occasion we've decided that we're going to keep our exercising to trails and designated sidewalks. On the way back, the sidewalk literally ended. It was nice ridding by the water though and there was a nice sidewalk just for pedestrians!

Google maps is telling me that our total bike ride was a total of 12.4 miles. Sarah calculated our earned activity points at 6, which works great for us because after our bike ride we went to C.D. Romas and got two small pizza slices and a yummy salad bar!


The new Salvador Dali Museum




The Pier




My all time favorite house in Old North East, I LOVE THAT TREE!


S.O.L.


Image From: Natalie Dee

Sometimes I feel like I have the worst luck ever. All week long I've been searching for my camera charger to no avail. As soon as I order another one on the Internet I find the one I'm missing.

This morning the midwife called me at 5:30 for a birth but I told her I couldn't make it because I had to be at work at 8. Well, the woman had her baby at 6:45. Plenty of time for me to make it to work. I am so upset about this, it has made me sad all morning.

I've also been incredibly anxious lately. I'm flat broke, my student loan money hasn't come in yet and the banks have yet to deffer my USF student loans. I've never been this "poor" before. While at USF I was always able to work almost full time at the best job ever. Now I work weekends only and am scrapping by.

Midwifery school isn't inherently difficult. If you can read, have good time management skill, do your homework, pay attention in class and get decent grades on the exams then you won't have a problem with the academic side of school. Being broke is a whole other story.

It costs me almost $50.00 a week in gas to get to school. If you don't have someone in Gainesville then you either have to drive back to your house (in my cast 2.5 hours away) or rent a hotel. Plus, all the regular school costs (books, supplies, physical and blood work, yada yada).

Oh, why am I not independently wealthy?

Friday, September 24, 2010

More school than midwifery

Now that I'm in midwifery school people want to know all about it. What's it like? How many babies have you 'delivered'? What do you do for X, Y and Z? My niece, daughter, neighbors third cousin wants to be a midwife, can I give them your phone number?

Well, let me just let you all in on a little secret. The first semester of midwifery school is more school than midwifery. We are not doing our clinicals yet. It's a lot of learning about psychology, history, anatomy, how to write a research paper and how to take a blood pressure. My anatomy teacher told us during the first week of school that our first year is a "shake down cruise" to drop off all the misfit midwifery students before moving on the to "placentas and cervices," or as I like to call it- the GOOD stuff!

Lucky for me I'm already in contact with my preceptor. I've gotten the opportunity to go to her prenatal visits and two of her births. One a water birth and one a VBAC. Starting Thursday I'm going to be working in her office as an office assistant. I'm really excited to start learning the business side of a home birth midwifery practice.

Every week at school gets me closer to January when we can start officially precepting and counting our births! I can't wait to start blogging all about it!

Monday, September 20, 2010

91 days of Autumn

I love fall. It's nice and cool, there is a crispness in the air. Living in Florida, there aren't the typical four seasons that you often experience in other locations but Florida does have its own way of doing fall.

Today is the first day of Autumn and to celebrate I took pictures of plants and other things I found in the backyard...





Friday, September 17, 2010

Biomedicine, a love story


"The techno-medical model of maternity care, unlike the midwifery model, is comparatively new on the world scene, having existed for barely two centuries. This male-derived framework for care is a product of the industrial revolution. As anthropologist Robbie Davis-Floyd has described in detail, underlying the technocratic mode of care of our own time is an assumption that the human body is a machine and that the female body in particular is a machine full of shortcomings and defects. Pregnancy and labor are seen as illnesses, which, in order not to be harmful to mother or baby, must be treated with drugs and medical equipment. Within the techno-medical model of birth, some medical intervention is considered necessary for every birth, and birth is safe only in retrospect."
— Ina May Gaskin (Ina May's Guide to Childbirth)

Can you even imagine having a baby without an epidural, an IV bolus, Pitocin, a foley catheter, a blood pressure cuff, continuous electronic fetal monitoring, an intrauterine pressure catheter, a pulse oximeter, coached purple pushing with fundal pressure in the lithotomy position, an episiotomy, a vacuum extraction, immediate cord clamping followed by seperation of mother and baby? Me neither! Crazy hippies!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Midwifery with a side of Anthropology



I love school! The days are long, the classroom is cramped and gets hot, but nothing is better. It's amazing! I feel so happy when I'm waking up at 5am for my three hour drive to Gainesville. I cannot express in words how much fun it is to be in school and to be learning something I am truly passionate about.

I spent 4 years at USF and I never felt this type of passion, ever! I can only imagine how much more successful I would have been in graduate school if I had discovered and established my passion two years ago.

I've thought about how much different my life would be if I hadn't gone to USF first, if I had went straight to FSTM after graduating high school. I mean, I would be a MIDWIFE by now with three years of independent practice under my belt. Plus, I wouldn't have 30,000 dollars of student loans to be paying off.

However, my undergraduate education was more than a four year detour on the path to midwifery school. It was an education in cultural relativism. Without my degree in Anthropology I know that I wouldn't have the background knowledge and skills to be objective and culturally conscious. Cultural relativism is the ability to see other cultures, practices and belief systems through the eyes of that culture, not your own. Plus, cultural relativism applies to more than just foreign belief systems and traditions. The United States is a heterogeneous mixture of all different types of cultures and belief systems.



Take maternity care in the US for example. You have the medical model of care which has its own practices and beliefs. The culture of the medical model views the female body as unable to birth a baby, fears the natural process of childbirth and sees danger as lurking around every corner. Tests and procedures are routinely used in excess because of this belief that the female body is flawed and childbirth is a faulty process in need of medical intervention. Like a fish that doesn't see the water it lives in, people who live in the medical model of maternity care often do not realize that their system is not evidence based and often does more harm than good.



As I become a contemporary midwife, I am also become a postmodern midwife. Anthropologist Robbie Davis-Floyd writes on postmoderm midwives:

"For past millennia, midwives have served women in childbirth. In premodern times, midwives were usually the only birth attendants. With the Industrial Revolution and the arrival of modernism, male physicians either replaced midwives or superseded them in the modernist medical hierarchy, leaving them with plenty of women to attend but with relatively little autonomy. As the new millennium dawns on a growing worldwide biomedical hegemony over birth, midwives, the daughters of time and tradition, find themselves negotiating their identities, searching for appropriate roles, and seeking new rationales for their continued existence.

“Modernity” is a narrow canal through which the vast majority of contemporary cultures have passed or are passing. It arrived in various parts of the world at different times; first in the industrializing countries of the North, and more slowly in the colonized and exploited countries of the South. So anthropologists consider “modernism” not to be a particular point in time but rather a univariate (single-pointed, single-minded, unvarying) orientation toward “progress,” defined in terms of Westernized forms of education, technologization, infrastructural development (highway, rail, water, and air systems etc.), factory production, economic growth, and the development of the global marketplace. This univariate orientation identifies a single point in a given area toward which development should be progressing: in economics, that single point is capitalism; in health care, it is Western biomedicine. Thus in modernizing societies traditional systems of healing, including midwifery, have become increasingly regarded by members of the growing middle and upper classes as “premodern vestiges” of a more backward time that must necessarily vanish as modernization/biomedicalization progresses.

Yet around the world, the univariate orientation of modernization is increasingly contested. Postmodern thinking widens the narrow canal of modernization beyond uncritical acceptance of modernization as good, noting the enormous environmental, social, and cultural damage modernization entails, and seeking to generate more polymorphous societies in which multiple knowledge and belief systems can coexist and complement each other. In postmodern societies and groups, conservation and preservation of the environment and of indigenous or traditional languages, cosmologies, health care, and economic systems take on particular urgency and importance, and such endeavors are sometimes considered to be more important than expanding the reach of industrialization, capitalism, and biomedicine.

Around the world we are witnessing the emergence of a phenomenon that I call “postmodern midwifery” –-a term aimed at capturing those aspects of contemporary midwifery practice that fall outside easy distinctions between traditional birthways, professional midwifery, and modern biomedicine. With this term, I am trying to highlight the qualities that emerge from the practice, the discourse, and the political engagement of a certain kind of contemporary midwife—one who often constructs a radical critique of unexamined conventions and univariate assumptions. Postmodern midwives as I define them are relativistic, articulate, organized, political, and highly conscious of both their cultural uniqueness and their global importance. By "postmodern midwife" I specifically do not mean midwives who accept without criticism either their own folk system or that of biomedicine, but rather midwives who fully understand these in a relative way, as different ways of knowing about birth, discrepant systems that often conflict but can be complementary."

With a background in Anthropology, I am better able to understand Davis-Floyd's interpretation of the postmodern midwife as I strive to become an "agent of change." Who knew six years after changing my major from pre-med to anthropology I'd be embarking on a such a dynamic field with a rich, powerful history?

A car load of thanks!


My parents paid off my car yesterday. I cannot express the sincerest sense of gratitude I feel towards them for always supporting me emotionally and financially. I can only imagine the struggles people have when they do not have a strong support system like I have. I know that my parents are the reason that I am so well adjusted. Without them I know that I wouldn't be where I am today.
Thank you mom and dad! You're the best parents ever!

Friday, September 3, 2010

First Days of School


I just got back from three days in Gainesville for orientation and the first two days of class. I have never been more excited in my life! It is amazing to be in such a positive environment surrounded with women (and one man) who are so passionate about the midwifery profession. I am literally excited to be doing homework!
The first book we've had to read was Witches, Miwives & Nurses. The history of women healers has a violent story. Mothers, daughters, sisters and wives were literally burned at the stake for practicing "a more human, empiral approach to healing." The book continues to talk about the "white, male, middle-class occupation" that became American medicine starting in the 1800's.
I feel honored to be able to join a profession with such a long, often brutal history. Women literally died in order to take care of other women and keep the profession alive. I vow to honor their struggle and carry midwifery on into the twenty-first century!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Speedy Gonzales


I got a phone call this morning at 3am from a second time mom. She has a history of going fast. She told me she got to the hospital and her first daughter was born within the hour.

So, rather than going through my fluffy doula schpeel (walk, eat, drink, pee), I told her I was getting dressed and would meet her at the hospital. I called my doula friend who is working on her CAPPA certification to meet me at the hospital to get credit for the birth. She was two contractions away from missing the birth, I'm glad she made it. The mom was six centimeters at 4am and delivered at 5:25am. The baby literally popped out in one push. So amazing!

I told myself that I was going to retire from hospital births. If there is one thing hospitals are good for, it's ruining normal birth. If only doctors and medwives knew how much easier their jobs would be if they'd just let low risk mothers deliver their babies in their own time. They would almost get paid to do nothing!

And to think they wanted to induce this mom on Tuesday, as if!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Water Baby


I went to my first water birth this morning and it was beautiful!

The midwife called me when the mom was starting to push. I literally got dressed and to the birth in fifteen minutes. Once the mom found her rhythm, she pushed her baby out with such ease. This mom made it look so easy to have a baby, it was amazing to see.

I've always heard great things about water birth but had never seen the benefits first hand. When the midwife asked the mom to get out and try some pushes on the bed, the mom was literally begging to get back into the water after about 10 minutes of land pushing. After the birth, the mom commented that getting back into the water was such a relief, she felt as if the water washed her pain away.

Benefits for Mother:

-Water is soothing, comforting, relaxing.
-In the later stages of labor, the water seems to increase the woman’s energy.
-The buoyancy lessens her body weight, allows free movement and new positioning.
-Buoyancy promotes more efficient uterine contractions and better blood circulation, resulting in better oxygenation of the uterine muscles, less pain for the mother, and more oxygen for the baby.
-Immersion in water often helps lower high blood pressure caused by anxiety.
-Water seems to alleviate stress-related hormones, allowing the mother’s body to produce endorphins, which are pain-inhibitors.
-Water causes the perineum to become more elastic and relaxed, which reduces the incidence and severity of tearing and the need for an episiotomy and stitches.
-As the laboring women relaxes physically she is able to relax mentally, concentrating her efforts inward on the birth process.
-The water provides a sense of privacy, which releases inhibitions, anxiety, and fears.

Benefits for Baby:

-Provides a similar environment as the amniotic sac.
-Eases the stress of the birth, providing reassurance and security.
From: Americanpregnancy.org

I wish more women had the opportunity to have water births if they so desire. They are an amazing, natural and cost effective way to alleviate labor pains so moms can birth their babies naturally, into the water.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Dream Home


I've been taking the long way home from work to scope out places that look suitable for a birth center. I start school in three weeks and I've been thinking a lot about what type of midwife I want to be, a home birth midwife or a midwife with a stable birth center.
Working with the women through The Pregnancy Center and from anecdotal conversations with other midwives, I think the South Saint Pete population would benefit from a birth center. Even though birth center birth is still "out of hospital" I think a lot of women feel more comfortable with a "place to go" for their visits and to have their baby. Sort of a half way point between home and the hospital.
Considering my targeted population, I should establish a center south of Central Avenue. However, I found the most beautiful house the other day on a different route home. It's in downtown Saint Pete, on the cusp of Old North East. A beautiful home situated in the middle of the city. The website that has it listed says that it can easily be used as a home or an office building. I wish for anything to start a birth center in this home but I know that is impossible. I don't have the money nor have I even started school yet!
Dreaming of this home keeps me motivated to succeed in school and eventually open a birth center. I know the road won't be easy but I'm preparing for the adventure...

Friday, August 6, 2010

$4.00 a page


I bought my books today! The five books that it will take me to complete the first semester of midwifery school cost a whopping $218.14. That is easily the amount I would have spent on a single class book list from USF. My books for Anatomy I at USF cost $279.10 and that was for the book and the student guide that went with the book!
Seriously, there is a problem when it cost more to buy the books for a course than it does to pay for the course! Some people would argue that it's a racket when the professor writes the books and then makes the student purchase the books they authored. I can say sometimes I can see the controvery in that, however, two of the best classes I had ever taken were taught by the author of our textbook. Dr. Durand taught abnormal psychology using the book he authored and I honestly think that was the best book for the course. The problem is not professors authoring textbooks on the reading list, the problem is the exorbitant cost of textbooks, the constant publication of new editions, and the assigning of multiple books for a single class. There is also a problem with buy back when the semester is over. I paid over $100.00 for this book and I'm getting $30.00 back so you can re-sell it used for $75.00- FANTASTIC, sign me up!
The latest textbook hubbub is electronic books. For electronic copies of textbooks you pay about half the price of the physical book for the digital copy but when the semester is over your access code to the digital copy is expired and you make no money for a "sell back."
The US government published a report on the cost of textbooks and how to assist in making them affordable to students. Their conculsion for long term change: "a supply-driven, producer-centric market must be transformed into a demand-driven, college- and student-centric market." Hopefully, by the time future generations make to college, it won't cost a semesters worth of tuition to buy a classes worth of textbooks.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Breastmilk is white, breastfeeding is for everyone!


Where are all the breastfeeding support groups for the average women in Saint Pete. Yes, there is La Leche League in Pinellas Park and the breastfeeding support groups at the local birth center in Largo, but what about the women south of Central Avenue? Not everyone uses cloth diapers, has the time or money to meet for lunch and attend "play dates," or the interest in discussing which baby food is organically grown/certified fair trade.
Where are the groups for the women on WIC? The women who take the city bus? The girl still in high school? The women who shop at Walmart and Save-a-lot?
I hope to start a breastfeeding support group for those women, the real women. The women who are often left behind when it comes to breastfeeding support. Only 1 out of 6 black women breastfeed past six months, it's time to change that!
Here's to making breastfeeding for everyone!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Všechno nejlepší k narozeninám


I love happy births. What a great labor, even if mom didn't always agree. The nurse felt a scar on her cervix from an earlier surgery and broke it up which helped her fly from 4 to 10 in under three hours. I'm so glad that the nurse knew to do that. I had recently read an article addressing cervical scars.
The article on cervical scar tissue can be found here

Friday, July 23, 2010

Sweet Deception


My doula client called me yesterday to let me know how her prenatal visit went on Wednesday. We are expecting her baby any day now so when she called I thought she was going to tell me that she was in labor. In labor she was not. She told me that her midwifes at the Health Department wanted her to go to the hospital on Sunday for an induction because of "borderline high blood sugar."
"Blood sugar?" I repeated to her over the phone again and again. "You're sure they said blood sugar and not blood pressure." She assured me that they said blood sugar. In all my readings I have never come across anything that would suggest that borderline high blood sugar would be a reason for an induction. The reasoning behind the induction, I suspected, was a fear that the baby was going to be too big, a condition called macrosomia. Interesting, I thought, when several highly respected authors, including Marsden Wagner and Jennifer Block, stated that macrosomia is not a justification for induction.
To make sure I wasn't crazy I called my midwife friend for her opinion. "NOT true!" was her first reaction when I told her about the reasoning for the induction. She assured me that I wasn't crazy and that she would never recommend a mom for an induction because of suspected macrosomia, especially not with a diagnosis of "BORDERLINE" high blood sugar. Ultrasounds can be off by as much as two pounds and even the most trained provider cannot predict a baby's birth weight.
When I talk my clients about induction I always want them to ask why the induction is being recommended. If everything is OK with mom and baby? Then why are we inducing? We all know that inductions more than double the chance of the birth being a surgical delivery, so the risk of surgery should always be considered when discussing induction. Does the risk of surgery outweight the risk of staying pregnant? I do not believe that macrosomia should ever be deemed a justification for induction or elective surgical delivery. If the baby is too big the only way we will know that is if the labor starts on its own and then the baby doesn't fit. Period. There is no guarantee when predicting birth weight and weight alone does not mean the baby cannot be born vaginally. A ten pound and a six pound baby could have the same head circumference and if the ten pounder is in a more favorable position than they may be easier to birth. I feel that most inductions are orchestrated cesareans. An obstetrical Münchausen by proxy used by the doctors and medwives to prove their superior medical knowledge in predicting that the baby "just couldn't be born vaginally, see I told you so."
We need to trust birth, trust our bodies and trust our babies. My client is angry that her midwifes would recommend such an invasive procedure. She wants her baby to be born in her own time, on her own terms. This afternoon I'm going to go visit my client, not to give her advice on natural methods for induction, but to support her in her decision not to be induced on Sunday. My midwife friend wants to come by and meet with her as well to assure her that she can birth her baby vaginally. I'm so happy to have such a wonderful friend devoted to honoring babies, respecting women and trusting birth! The world needs more motherbaby friendly midwifes!!!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Defining Love


I find this quote very true and meaningful.

"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
— Chuck Klosterman (Killing Yourself to Live: 85% of a True Story)

De-flowerd


I love the idea of fresh cut flowers. I've always wanted to be one of those people that has fresh cut flowers in their kitchen or on their dinner table. One who picks up a bunch of fresh hydrangea or sunflowers while shopping for organic lettuce and empanadas at the Saturday Morning Market. However, I'm not one of those people. Instead, I'm one of those people who has fresh fungi growing in their fruit bowl and in the crisper drawer of their fridge.
Now, if I only had this uterus vase...